We have been for the last three hours in sight of land, and we are soon to enter the Bay of New York, which is said to be exquisitely beautiful.But of course you recall it, though they say that everything changes so fast over here.I find I don't remember anything, for my recollections of our voyage to Europe, so many years ago, are exceedingly dim; I only have a painful impression that mamma shut me up for an hour every day in the state-room, and made me learn by heart some religious poem.I was only five years old, and I believe that as a child I was extremely timid; on the other hand, mamma, as you know, was dreadfully severe.She is severe to this day; only I have become indifferent; I have been so pinched and pushed--morally speaking, bien entendu.It is true, however, that there are children of five on the vessel today who have been extremely conspicuous--ranging all over the ship, and always under one's feet.Of course they are little compatriots, which means that they are little barbarians.I don't mean that all our compatriots are barbarous; they seem to improve, somehow, after their first communion.I don't know whether it's that ceremony that improves them, especially as so few of them go in for it; but the women are certainly nicer than the little girls; I mean, of course, in proportion, you know.You warned me not to generalise, and you see I have already begun, before we have arrived.But I suppose there is no harm in it so long as it is favourable.Isn't it favourable when I say that I have had the most lovely time? I have never had so much liberty in my life, and I have been out alone, as you may say, every day of the voyage.If it is a foretaste of what is to come, I shall take to that very kindly.When I say that Ihave been out alone, I mean that we have always been two.But we two were alone, so to speak, and it was not like always having mamma, or Madame Galopin, or some lady in the pension, or the temporary cook.Mamma has been very poorly; she is so very well on land, it's a wonder to see her at all taken down.She says, however, that it isn't the being at sea; it's, on the contrary, approaching the land.She is not in a hurry to arrive; she says that great disillusions await us.I didn't know that she had any illusions--she's so stern, so philosophic.She is very serious; she sits for hours in perfect silence, with her eyes fixed on the horizon.I heard her say yesterday to an English gentleman--a very odd Mr.Antrobus, the only person with whom she converses--that she was afraid she shouldn't like her native land, and that she shouldn't like not liking it.But this is a mistake--she will like that immensely (I mean not liking it).If it should prove at all agreeable, mamma will be furious, for that will go against her system.You know all about mamma's system; I have explained that so often.It goes against her system that we should come back at all;that was MY system--I have had at last to invent one! She consented to come only because she saw that, having no dot, I should never marry in Europe; and I pretended to be immensely pre-occupied with this idea, in order to make her start.In reality cela m'est parfaitement egal.I am only afraid I shall like it too much (Idon't mean marriage, of course, but one's native land).Say what you will, it's a charming thing to go out alone, and I have given notice to mamma that I mean to be always en course.When I tell her that, she looks at me in the same silence; her eye dilates, and then she slowly closes it.It's as if the sea were affecting her a little, though it's so beautifully calm.I ask her if she will try my bromide, which is there in my bag; but she motions me off, and Ibegin to walk again, tapping my little boot-soles upon the smooth clean deck.This allusion to my boot-soles, by the way, is not prompted by vanity; but it's a fact that at sea one's feet and one's shoes assume the most extraordinary importance, so that we should take the precaution to have nice ones.They are all you seem to see as the people walk about the deck; you get to know them intimately, and to dislike some of them so much.I am afraid you will think that I have already broken loose; and for aught I know, I am writing as a demoiselle bien-elevee should not write.I don't know whether it's the American air; if it is, all I can say is that the American air is very charming.It makes me impatient and restless, and I sit scribbling here because I am so eager to arrive, and the time passes better if I occupy myself.I am in the saloon, where we have our meals, and opposite to me is a big round porthole, wide open, to let in the smell of the land.Every now and then I rise a little and look through it, to see whether we are arriving.I mean in the Bay, you know, for we shall not come up to the city till dark.I don't want to lose the Bay; it appears that it's so wonderful.I don't exactly understand what it contains, except some beautiful islands;but I suppose you will know all about that.It is easy to see that these are the last hours, for all the people about me are writing letters to put into the post as soon as we come up to the dock.Ibelieve they are dreadful at the custom-house, and you will remember how many new things you persuaded mamma that (with my pre-occupation of marriage) I should take to this country, where even the prettiest girls are expected not to go unadorned.We ruined ourselves in Paris (that is part of mamma's solemnity); mais au moins je serai belle! Moreover, I believe that mamma is prepared to say or to do anything that may be necessary for escaping from their odious duties; as she very justly remarks, she can't afford to be ruined twice.I don't know how one approaches these terrible douaniers, but I mean to invent something very charming.I mean to say, "Voyons, Messieurs, a young girl like me, brought up in the strictest foreign traditions, kept always in the background by a very superior mother--la voila; you can see for yourself!--what is it possible that she should attempt to smuggle in? Nothing but a few simple relics of her convent!" I won't tell them that my convent was called the Magasin du Bon Marche.Mamma began to scold me three days ago for insisting on so many trunks, and the truth is that, between us, we have not fewer than seven.For relics, that's a good many! We are all writing very long letters--or at least we are writing a great number.There is no news of the Bay as yet.
