It distressed me, it did indeed distress me, to hear her say that.She was so young and so lonely--and she bore it so well! The impulse to help her got the better of any sense of my own unfitness which I might have felt under the circumstances; and I stated such ideas on the subject as occurred to me on the spur of the moment, to the best of my ability.Ihave advised a prodigious number of clients, and have dealt with some exceedingly awkward difficulties, in my time.But this was the first occasion on which I had ever found myself advising a young lady how to obtain her release from a marriage engagement.The suggestion I offered amounted briefly to this.I recommended her to tell Mr.Godfrey Ablewhite--at a private interview, of course--that he had, to her certain knowledge, betrayed the mercenary nature of the motive on his side.She was then to add that their marriage, after what she had discovered, was a simple impossibility--and she was to put it to him, whether he thought it wisest to secure her silence by falling in with her views, or to force her, by opposing them, to make the motive under which she was acting generally known.If he attempted to defend himself, or to deny the facts, she was, in that event, to refer him to me.
Miss Verinder listened attentively till I had done.She then thanked me very prettily for my advice, but informed me at the same time that it was impossible for her to follow it.
`May I ask,' I said, `what objection you see to following it?'
She hesitated--and then met me with a question on her side.
`Suppose you were asked to express your opinion of Mr.Godfrey Ablewhite's conduct?' she began.
`Yes?'
`What would you call it?'
`I should call it the conduct of a meanly deceitful man.'
`Mr.Bruff! I have believed in that man.I have promised to marry that man.How can I tell him he is mean, how can I tell him he has deceived me, how can I disgrace him in the eyes of the world after that? I have degraded myself by ever thinking of him as my husband.If I say what you tell me to say to him--I am owning that I have degraded myself to his face.
I can't do that.After what has passed between us, I can't do that! The shame of it would be nothing to him.But the shame of it would be unendurable to me.'
Here was another of the marked peculiarities in her character disclosing itself to me without reserve.Here was her sensitive horror of the bare contact with anything mean, blinding her to every consideration of what she owed to herself, hurrying her into a false position which might compromise her in the estimation of all her friends! Up to this time, I had been a little diffident about the propriety of the advice I had given to her.
But, after what she had just said, I had no sort of doubt that it was the best advice that could have been offered; and I felt no sort of hesitation in pressing it on her again.
She only shook her head, and repeated her objection in other words.
`He has been intimate enough with me to ask me to be his wife.He has stood high enough in my estimation to obtain my consent.I can't tell him to his face that he is the most contemptible of living creatures, after that!'
`But, my dear Miss Rachel,' I remonstrated, `it's equally impossible for you to tell him that you withdraw from your engagement without giving some reason for it.'
`I shall say that I have thought it over, and that I am satisfied it will be best for both of us if we part.'
`No more than that?'
`No more.'
`Have you thought of what he may say, on his side?'
`He may say what he pleases.'
It was impossible not to admire her delicacy and her resolution, and it was equally impossible not to feel that she was putting herself in the wrong.I entreated her to consider her own position.I reminded her that she would be exposing herself to the most odious misconstruction of her motives.`You can't brave public opinion,' I said, `at the command of private feeling.'
`I can,' she answered.`I have done it already.'
`What do you mean?'
`You have forgotten the Moonstone, Mr.Bruff.Have I not braved public opinion, there , with my own private reasons for it?'
Her answer silenced me for the moment.It set me trying to trace the explanation of her conduct, at the time of the loss of the Moonstone, out of the strange avowal which had just escaped her.I might perhaps have done it when I was younger.I certainly couldn't do it now.
I tried a last remonstrance before we returned to the house.She was just as immovable as ever.My mind was in a strange conflict of feelings about her when I left her that day.She was obstinate; she was wrong.She was interesting; she was admirable; she was deeply to be pitied.I made her promise to write to me the moment she had any news to send.And I went back to my business in London, with a mind exceedingly ill at ease.
On the evening of my return, before it was possible for me to receive my promised letter, I was surprised by a visit from Mr.Ablewhite the elder, and was informed that Mr.Godfrey had got his dismissal-- and had accepted it --that very day.
With the view I already took of the case, the bare fact, stated in the words that I have underlined, revealed Mr.Godfrey Ablewhite's motive for submission as plainly as if he had acknowledged it himself.He needed a large sum of money; and he needed it by a given time.Rachel's income, which would have helped him to anything else, would not help him here;and Rachel had accordingly released herself, without encountering a moment's serious opposition on his part.If I am told that this is a mere speculation, I ask, in my turn, What other theory will account for his giving up a marriage which would have maintained him in splendour for the rest of his life?
Any exultation I might otherwise have felt at the lucky turn which things had now taken, was effectually checked by what passed at my interview with old Mr.Ablewhite.
He came, of course, to know whether I could give him any explanation of Miss Verinder's extraordinary conduct.It is needless to say that Iwas quite unable to afford him the information he wanted.The annoyance which I thus inflicted, following on the irritation produced by a recent interview with his son, threw Mr.Ablewhite off his guard.Both his looks and his language convinced me that Miss Verinder would find him a merciless man to deal with, when he joined the ladies at Brighton the next day.
I had a restless night, considering what I ought to do next.How my reflections ended, and how thoroughly well founded my distrust of Mr.Ablewhite proved to be, are items of information which (as I am told) have already been put tidily in their proper places, by that exemplary person, Miss Clack.I have only to add--in completion of her narrative--that Miss Verinder found the quiet and repose which she sadly needed, poor thing, in my house at Hampstead.She honoured us by making a long stay.My wife and daughters were charmed with her; and, when the executors decided on the appointment of a new guardian, I feel sincere pride and pleasure in recording that my guest and my family parted like old friends, on either side.