书城公版WOMEN IN LOVE
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They passed the inn with its painted shutters and balcony, a few cottages, half buried in the snow; then the snow-buried silent sawmill by the roofed bridge, which crossed the hidden stream, over which they ran into the very depth of the untouched sheets of snow.It was a silence and a sheer whiteness exhilarating to madness.But the perfect silence was most terrifying, isolating the soul, surrounding the heart with frozen air.

`It's a marvellous place, for all that,' said Gudrun, looking into his eyes with a strange, meaning look.His soul leapt.

`Good,' he said.

A fierce electric energy seemed to flow over all his limbs, his muscles were surcharged, his hands felt hard with strength.They walked along rapidly up the snow-road, that was marked by withered branches of trees stuck in at intervals.He and she were separate, like opposite poles of one fierce energy.But they felt powerful enough to leap over the confines of life into the forbidden places, and back again.

Birkin and Ursula were running along also, over the snow.He had disposed of the luggage, and they had a little start of the sledges.Ursula was excited and happy, but she kept turning suddenly to catch hold of Birkin's arm, to make sure of him.

`This is something I never expected,' she said.`It is a different world, here.'

They went on into a snow meadow.There they were overtaken by the sledge, that came tinkling through the silence.It was another mile before they came upon Gudrun and Gerald on the steep up-climb, beside the pink, half-buried shrine.

Then they passed into a gulley, where were walls of black rock and a river filled with snow, and a still blue sky above.Through a covered bridge they went, drumming roughly over the boards, crossing the snow-bed once more, then slowly up and up, the horses walking swiftly, the driver cracking his long whip as he walked beside, and calling his strange wild hue-hue! , the walls of rock passing slowly by, till they emerged again between slopes and masses of snow.Up and up, gradually they went, through the cold shadow-radiance of the afternoon, silenced by the imminence of the mountains, the luminous, dazing sides of snow that rose above them and fell away beneath.

They came forth at last in a little high table-land of snow, where stood the last peaks of snow like the heart petals of an open rose.In the midst of the last deserted valleys of heaven stood a lonely building with brown wooden walls and white heavy roof, deep and deserted in the waste of snow, like a dream.It stood like a rock that had rolled down from the last steep slopes, a rock that had taken the form of a house, and was now half-buried.

It was unbelievable that one could live there uncrushed by all this terrible waste of whiteness and silence and clear, upper, ringing cold.

Yet the sledges ran up in fine style, people came to the door laughing and excited, the floor of the hostel rang hollow, the passage was wet with snow, it was a real, warm interior.

The new-comers tramped up the bare wooden stairs, following the serving woman.Gudrun and Gerald took the first bedroom.In a moment they found themselves alone in a bare, smallish, close-shut room that was all of golden-coloured wood, floor, walls, ceiling, door, all of the same warm gold panelling of oiled pine.There was a window opposite the door, but low down, because the roof sloped.Under the slope of the ceiling were the table with wash-hand bowl and jug, and across, another table with mirror.On either side the door were two beds piled high with an enormous blue-checked overbolster, enormous.

This was all -- no cupboard, none of the amenities of life.Here they were shut up together in this cell of golden-coloured wood, with two blue checked beds.They looked at each other and laughed, frightened by this naked nearness of isolation.

A man knocked and came in with the luggage.He was a sturdy fellow with flattish cheek-bones, rather pale, and with coarse fair moustache.Gudrun watched him put down the bags, in silence, then tramp heavily out.

`It isn't too rough, is it?' Gerald asked.

The bedroom was not very warm, and she shivered slightly.

`It is wonderful,' she equivocated.`Look at the colour of this panelling -- it's wonderful, like being inside a nut.'

He was standing watching her, feeling his short-cut moustache, leaning back slightly and watching her with his keen, undaunted eyes, dominated by the constant passion, that was like a doom upon him.

She went and crouched down in front of the window, curious.

`Oh, but this -- !' she cried involuntarily, almost in pain.

In front was a valley shut in under the sky, the last huge slopes of snow and black rock, and at the end, like the navel of the earth, a white-folded wall, and two peaks glimmering in the late light.Straight in front ran the cradle of silent snow, between the great slopes that were fringed with a little roughness of pine-trees, like hair, round the base.But the cradle of snow ran on to the eternal closing-in, where the walls of snow and rock rose impenetrable, and the mountain peaks above were in heaven immediate.

This was the centre, the knot, the navel of the world, where the earth belonged to the skies, pure, unapproachable, impassable.

It filled Gudrun with a strange rapture.She crouched in front of the window, clenching her face in her hands, in a sort of trance.At last she had arrived, she had reached her place.Here at last she folded her venture and settled down like a crystal in the navel of snow, and was gone.

Gerald bent above her and was looking out over her shoulder.Already he felt he was alone.She was gone.She was completely gone, and there was icy vapour round his heart.He saw the blind valley, the great cul-de-sac of snow and mountain peaks, under the heaven.And there was no way out.

The terrible silence and cold and the glamorous whiteness of the dusk wrapped him round, and she remained crouching before the window, as at a shrine, a shadow.

`Do you like it?' he asked, in a voice that sounded detached and foreign.