书城公版WIVES AND DAUGHTERS
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第202章 SECRET THOUGHTS OOZE OUT (6)

But do you know you ought not to have been told? And, moreover, things are not quite arrived at the solemnity of - of - well - an engagement.

He would not have it so.Now, I shan't say any more; and you must not.

Pray remember you ought not to have known; it is my own secret, and I particularly wished it not to be spoken about; and I don't like it's being so talked about.Oh, the leaking of water through one small hole!' And then she plunged into the tête-à-tête of the other two, making the conversation general.Osborne was rather discomfited at the non-success of his congratulations; he had pictured to himself the unbosoming of a love-sick girl, full of rapture, and glad of a sympathizing confidant.He little knew Cynthia's nature.The more she suspected that she was called upon for a display of emotion, the less would she show;and her emotions were generally under the control of her will.He had made an effort to come and see her; and now he leant back in his chair, weary and a little dispirited.'You poor dear young man,' said Mrs Gibson, coming up to him with her soft, soothing manner; 'how tired you look! Do take some of that eau-de-Cologne and bathe your forehead.This spring weather overcomes me too.' Primavera '

I think the Italians call it.But it is very trying for delicate constitutions, as much from its associations as from its variableness of temperature.

It makes me sigh perpetually; but then I am so sensitive.Dear Lady Cumnor always used to say I was like a thermometer.You've heard how ill she has been?' 'No,' said Osborne, not very much caring either.'Oh, yes, she is better now; but the anxiety about her has tried me so:

detained here by what are, of course, my duties, but far away from all intelligence, and not knowing what the next post might bring.' 'Where was she then?' asked Osborne, becoming a little more sympathetic.'At Spa.Such a distance off! Three days' post! Can't you conceive the trial? Living with her as I did for years; bound up in the family as Iwas.' 'But Lady Harriet said, in her last letter, that they hoped that she would be stronger than she had been for years,' said Molly, innocently.'Yes - Lady Harriet - of course - every one who knows Lady Harriet knows that she is of too sanguine a temperament for her statements to be perfectly relied on.Altogether - strangers are often deluded by Lady Harriet - she has an off - hand manner which takes them in; but she does not mean half she says.' 'We will hope she does in this instance,' said Cynthia, shortly.'They are in London now, and Lady Cumnor has not suffered from the journey.' 'They say so,' said Mrs Gibson, shaking her head, and laying an emphasis on the word 'say.' 'I am perhaps over-anxious, but I wish - I wish I could see and judge for myself.It would be the only way of calming my anxiety.

I almost think I shall go up with you, Cynthia, for a day or two, just to see her with my own eyes.I don't quite like your travelling alone either.

We will think about it, and you shall write to Mr Kirkpatrick, and propose it, if we determine upon it.You can tell him of my anxiety; and it will be only sharing your bed for a couple of nights.'