书城公版Karl Ludwig Sand
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第18章

Five days were still allowed to elapse,and the verdict was not announced until the 17th.When Sand was informed that two councillors of justice were at the door,he guessed that they were coming to read his sentence to him;he asked a moment to rise,which he had done but once before,in the instance already narrated,during fourteen months.And indeed he was so weak that he could not stand to hear the sentence,and after having greeted the deputation that death sent to him,he asked to sit down,saying that he did so not from cowardice of soul but from weakness of body;then he added,"You are welcome,gentlemen;far I have suffered so much for fourteen months past that you come to me as angels of deliverance."He heard the sentence quite unaffectedly and with a gentle smile upon his lips;then,when the reading was finished,he said--"I look for no better fate,gentlemen,and when,more than a year ago,I paused on the little hill that overlooks the town,I saw beforehand the place where my grave would be;and so I ought to thank God and man far having prolonged my existence up to to-day."The councillors withdrew;Sand stood up a second time to greet them on their departure,as he had done on their entrance;then he sat down again pensively in his chair,by which Mr.G,the governor of the prison,was standing.After a moment of silence,a tear appeared at each of the condemned man's eyelids,and ran down his cheeks;then,turning suddenly to Mr.G--,whom he liked very much,he said,"I hope that my parents would rather see me die by this violent death than of some slow and shameful disease.As for me,I am glad that I shall soon hear the hour strike in which my death will satisfy those who hate me,and those wham,according to my principles,I ought to hate."

Then he wrote to his family.

"MANNHEIM

"17th of the month of spring,1820

"DEAR PARENTS,BROTHERS,AND SISTERS,--You should have received my last letters through the grand-duke's commission;in them I answered yours,and tried to console you for my position by describing the state of my soul as it is,the contempt to which I have attained for everything fragile and earthly,and by which one must necessarily be overcome when such matters are weighed against the fulfilment of an idea,or that intellectual liberty which alone can nourish the soul;in a word,I tried to console you by the assurance that the feelings,principles,and convictions of which I formerly spoke are faithfully preserved in me and have remained exactly the same;but I am sure all this was an unnecessary precaution on my part,for there was never a time when you asked anything else of me than to have God before my eyes and in my heart;and you have seen how,under your guidance,this precept so passed into my soul that it became my sole object of happiness for this world and the next;no doubt,as He was in and near me,God will be in and near you at the moment when this letter brings you the news of my sentence.I die willingly,and the Lord will give me strength to die as one ought to die.

"I write to you perfectly quiet and calm about all things,and I hope that your lives too will pass calmly and tranquilly until the moment when our souls meet again full of fresh force to love one another and to share eternal happiness together.

"As for me,such as I have lived as long as I have known myself--that is to say,in a serenity full of celestial desires and a courageous and indefatigable love of liberty,such I am about to die.

"May God be with you and with me!--Your son,brother,and friend,KARL-LUDWIG SAND.">From that moment his serenity remained un troubled;during the whole day he talked more gaily than usual,slept well,did not awake until half-past seven,said that he felt stronger,and thanked God for visiting him thus.

The nature of the verdict had been known since the day before,and it had been learned that the execution was fixed for the 20th of May --that is to say,three full days after the sentence had been read to the accused.

Henceforward,with Sand's permission,persons who wished to speak to him and whom he was not reluctant to see,were admitted:three among these paid him long and noteworthy visits.

One was Major Holzungen,of the Baden army,who was in command of the patrol that had arrested him,or rather picked him up,dying,and carried him to the hospital.He asked him whether he recognised him,and Sand's head was so clear when he stabbed himself,that although he saw the major only for a moment and had never seen him again since,he remembered the minutest details of the costume which he had been wearing fourteen months previously,and which was the full-dress uniform.When the talk fell upon the death to which Sand was to submit at so early an age,the major pitied him;but Sand answered,with a smile,"There is only one difference between you and me,major;it is that I shall die far my convictions,and you will die for someone else's convictions."After the major came a young student from Jena whom Sand had known at the university.He happened to be in the duchy of Baden and wished to visit him.Their recognition was touching,and the student wept much;but Sand consoled him with his usual calmness and serenity.

Then a workman asked to be admitted to see Sand,on the plea that he had been his schoolfellow at Wonsiedel,and although he did not remember his name,he ordered him to be let in:the workman reminded him that he had been one of the little army that Sand had commanded on the day of the assault of St.Catherine's tower.This indication guided Sand,who recognised him perfectly,and then spoke with tender affection of his native place and his dear mountains.He further charged him to greet his family,and to beg his mother,father,brothers,and sisters once more not to be grieved on his account,since the messenger who undertook to deliver his last wards could testify in how calm and joyful a temper he was awaiting death.