书城公版Pride and Prejudice
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第47章

This letter gave Elizabeth some pain;but her spirits returned as she considered that Jane would no longer be duped,by the sister at least. All expectation from the brother was now absolutely over.She would not even wish for any renewal of his attentions.His character sunk on every review of it;and as a punishment for him,as well as a possible advantage to Jane,she seriously hoped he might really soon marry Mr.Darcy's sister,as,by Wickham's account,she would make him abundantly regret what he had thrown away.

Mrs. Gardiner about this time reminded Elizabeth of her promise concerning that gentleman,and required information;and Elizabeth had such to send as might rather give contentment to her aunt than to herself.His apparent partiality had subsided,his attentions were over,he was the admirer of some one else.Elizabeth was watchful enough to see it all,but she could see it and write of it without material pain.Her heart had been but slightly touched,and her vanity was satisfied with believing that she would have been his only choice,had fortune permitted it.The sudden acquisition of ten thousand pounds was the most remarkable charm of the young lady,to whom he was now rendering himself agreeable;but Elizabeth,less clear-sighted perhaps in his case than in Charlotte's,did not quarrel with him for his wish of independence.Nothing,on the contrary,could be more natural;and while able to suppose that it cost him a few struggles to relinquish her,she was ready to allow it a wise and desirable measure for both,and could very sincerely wish him happy.

All this was acknowledged to Mrs. Gardiner;and after relatingthe circumstances,she thus went on:—'I am now convinced,my dear aunt,that I have never been much in love;for had I really experienced that pure and elevating passion,I should at present detest his very name,and wish him all manner of evil.But my feelings are not only cordial towards him;they are even impartial towards Miss King.I cannot find out that I hate her at all,or that I am in the least unwilling to think her a very good sort of girl.There can be no love in all this.My watchfulness has been effectual;and though I should certainly be a more interesting object to all my acquaintance,were I distractedly in love with him,I cannot say that I regret my comparative insignificance.Importance may sometimes be purchased too dearly.Kitty and Lydia take his defection much more to heart than I do.They are young in the ways of the world,and not yet open to the mortifying conviction that handsome young men must have something to live on,as well as the plain.

IV

W ith no greater events than these in the Longbourn family,and otherwise diversified by little beyond the walks to Meryton,sometimes dirty and sometimes cold,did January and February pass away. March was to take Elizabeth to Hunsford.She had not at first thought very seriously of going thither;but Charlotte,she soon found,was depending on the plan,and she gradually learned to consider it herself with greater pleasure as well as greater certainty.Absence had increased her desire of seeing Charlotte again,and weakened her disgust of Mr.Collins.There was novelty in the scheme,and as,with such a mother and such uncompanionable sisters,home could not be faultless,a little change was not unwelcome for its own sake.The journey would moreover give her a peep at Jane;and,in short,as the time drew near,she would have been very sorry for any delay.Every thing,however,went on smoothly,and was finally settled according to Charlotte's first sketch.She was to accompany Sir William and his second daughter.The improvement of spending a night in London was added in time,and the plan became perfect as plan could be.

The only pain was in leaving her father,who would certainly miss her,and who,when it came to the point,so little liked her going,that he told her to write to him,and almost promised to answer her letter.

The farewell between herself and Mr. Wickham was perfectly friendly;on his side even more.His present pursuit could notmake him forget that Elizabeth had been the first to excite and to deserve his attention,the first to listen and to pity,the first to be admired;and in his manner of bidding her adieu,wishing her every enjoyment,reminding her of what she was to expect in Lady Catherine de Bourgh,and trusting their opinion of her—their opinion of every body—would always coincide,there was a solicitude,an interest which she felt must ever attach her to him with a most sincere regard;and she parted from him convinced,that whether married or single,he must always be her model of the amiable and pleasing.

Her fellow-travellers the next day,were not of a kind to make her think him less agreeable. Sir William Lucas,and his daughter Maria,a good humoured girl,but as empty-headed as himself,had nothing to say that could be worth hearing,and were listened to with about as much delight as the rattle of the chaise.Elizabeth loved absurdities,but she had known Sir William's too long.He could tell her nothing new of the wonders of his presentation and knighthood;and his civilities were worn out like his information.

It was a journey of only twenty-four miles,and they began it so early as to be in Gracechurch-street by noon. As they drove to Mr.Gardiner's door,Jane was at a drawing-room window watching their arrival;when they entered the passage she was there to welcome them,and Elizabeth,looking earnestly in her face,was pleased to see it healthful and lovely as ever.On the stairs were a troop of little boys and girls,whose eagerness for their cousin's appearance would not allow them to wait in the drawing-room,and whose shyness,as they had not seen her for a twelvemonth,prevented their coming lower.All was joy and kindness.The day passed most pleasantly away;the morning in bustle and shopping,and the evening at one of the theatres.