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第31章 附录Ⅰ (2)

When fortune smiles at me,

I hoisted a fortune-bringing flag.

The I am invited to the feast,

By a girl of a good family.

注:这一节乃是极言宝幡效验之速。

20

我向露了白齿微笑的女子们的*

座位间普遍地看了一眼,

一人差涩的目光流转时,

从眼角间射到我少年的脸上。

20

I cast a glance at a bevy of sitted lasses,

With white teeth and smiling looks,

(One of them) looked at my face bashfully,

From the corner of her eyes.

注:在这一句中藏文有lpags-pa(皮)字颇觉无从索解。

21

因为心中热烈的爱慕,

问伊是否愿作我的亲密的伴侣?

伊说:若非死别,

决不生离。

21

Because (I) desperately fell in love with (her),

(I) asked whether (she) would care to become (my) intimate companion.

“Unless we are separated by death,

We should never part alive.” Was (her) answer.

22

若要随彼女的心意,

今生与佛法的缘分断绝了;

若要往空寂的山岭间去云游,

就把彼女的心愿违背了。

22

If I reciprocate with the feelings of the girl,

My share in religion during this life will be deprived.

If I wander among the solitary mountain ranges,

It would be contradictory to the wishes of the girl.

23

工布少年的心情,

好似拿在网里的蜂儿。

同我作了三日的宿伴,

又想起未来与佛法了。*

23

The mind of the young man from Kong-po,

Is like a bee captured in a net.

He has been (my) sleeping companion for three days,

(And now he) is pondering about the future and religion.

注:这一节是一位女子讥讽伊的爱人工布少年的话,将拿在网里的蜂儿之各处乱撞,比工布少年因理欲之争而发生的不安的心情。工布kong-po乃西藏地名,在拉萨东南。

24

终身伴侣啊,我一想到你,

若没有信义和羞耻,

头髻上戴的松石,

是不会说话的啊!*

24

(When I ) think about you, (my) permanent consort,

If (you are) unfaithful and shameless,

The turquoise (which you) wear on you head,

Dose not know how to speak.

注:这一节是说女子若不贞,男子无从监督,因为能同女子到处去的,只有伊头上戴的松石。

25

你露出白齿儿微笑,

是正在诱惑我呀?

心中是否有热情,

请发一个誓儿!

25

(You are) smiling with your teeth shown out,

And is enticing (me) the youth.

Whether you have warmth in your heart,

Please prove it by an oath.

26

情人邂逅相遇,*

被当垆的女子撮合。

若出了是非或债务,

你须担负他们的生活费啊!

26

lovers who met each other by chance,

Are united by mother the wine seller,

If troubles and debts should result from this,

You must take care of them.

注:这一句乃是藏人民常说的一句成语,直译当作“情人犹如鸟同石块在露上相遇”;意思是说鸟落在某一块石头上,不是山鸟的计划,乃系天缘。以此比情人的相遇全系天缘。

27

心腹话不向父母说,

却在爱人面前说了。

从爱人的许多牡鹿*之间,

秘密的话被仇人听去了。

27

One does not confide his secrets to his parents,

But tells them to his lover.

And from the lover’s many stage,

His secret sayings are heard by his enemy.

注:此处的牡鹿,系指女子的许多“追逐者”。

28

情人艺桌拉茉*,

虽是被我猎人捉住的。

却被大力的长官

讷桑嘉鲁夺去了。*

28

My lover Yid-hphrog-lha-mo,

Was captured by me the hunter,

(But she) was robbed from me,

By Nor-bzang-rgya-lu the powerful officer.

注一:此名意译当作“夺人心神的仙女”。

注二:有一个故事藏在这一节里边,但是讲这个故事的书在北平找不到,我所认识的藏族人士又都不知道这个故事,所以不能将故事中的情节告诉读者。

29

宝贝在手里的时候,

不拿它当宝贝看;

宝贝丢了的时候,

却又急得心气上涌。

29

When the jewel is in one’s own possession,

One does not appreciate it as a jewel.

But when the jewel has passed into other hands,

Then one’s heart aches with distress.

30

爱我的爱人儿,

被别人娶去了。

心中积思成痨,

身上的肉都消瘦了。

30

The lover who loves me,

Has gone to become another’s companion.

So I became sick of consumption,

And my body has become emaciated.

31

情人被人偷去了,

我须求签问卜去罢。

那天真烂漫的女子,

使我梦寐不忘。

31

(My) lover has been stolen and lost,

It is time for me to draw lot and consult fortune tellers.

That candid minded girl,

Has haunted my dreams.

32

若当垆的女子不死*,

酒是喝不尽的。

我少年寄身之所,

的确可以在这里。

32

If that girl does not die,

Then wine is inexhaustible.

So it is in deed possible for (me) the youth,

To make this a place of refuge.

注:西藏的酒家多系娼家,当垆女多兼操神女生涯,或撮合痴男怨女使在酒家相会。可参看第26节。

33

彼女不是母亲生的,

是桃树上长的罢!

伊对一人的爱情,

比桃花凋谢得还快呢!

33

Is that girl not born from a mother,

And was produced on a peach tree?

(Her) love towards a man withers up,

Even quicker than those peach flowers.

34

我自小相识的爱人,

莫非是与狼同类?

狼虽有成堆的肉和皮给它,

还是预备住在上面。*

34

Is my sweetheart whom I know from my boyhood,

Not of the same species with the wolf?

(The wolf) would make preparations for running up to the mountain,

Even if heaps of meat and skin are given to it.

注:这一节是一个男子以自己的财力不能买得一个女子永久的爱,怨恨女子的话。

35

野马往山上跑,

可用陷阱或绳索捉住;

爱人起了反抗,

用神通力也捉拿不住。

35

When a wild horse goes up a mountain,

It can be captured with a snare or lasso.

But when a lover has become rebellious,

She cannot be captured even by supernatural powers.

36

躁急和暴怒联合,

将鹰的羽毛弄乱了;

诡诈和忧虑的心思,

将我弄憔悴了。

36

Anger and ill-humour combined,

Have made the feathers of the vulture disheveled.

Intrigues and worried cares,

Have completely worn me out.

37

黄边黑心的浓云,

是严霜和灾雹的张本;

非僧非俗的班第*,

是我佛教法的仇敌。

37

The cloud which has a yellow brim and a black center,

Is the foreboding of frost and hail.

A ban-dhe which is nether monk nor layman,

Is an enemy of the Teachings of Buddha.

注:藏文为ban-dhe。据叶式客(Yaschke)的《藏英字典》的二义:(1)佛教僧人,(2)本波(pon po)教出家人。按“本波教”为西藏原始宗教,和内地的道教极相似。在西藏常和佛教互相排斥。此处ban dhe似系作第二义解。

38

表面化水的冰地,

不是骑牡马的地方;

秘密爱人的面前,

不是谈心的地方。

38

The ground which is melted on the surface and frozen at the bottom,

Is not a place to send a mare.

In the presence of a secret paramour,

is not prudent to express one’s heart.

39

初六和十五日的明月*,

倒是有些相似;

明月中的兔儿,

寿命却消磨尽了。*

39

The moon of the sixth and the fifteenth day,

Appear very much alike.

And the life of the hare in the center of the moon,

Has become completely exhausted.

注一:这一句藏文原文中有tshes-chen一字为达斯氏字典中所无。但此字显然是翻译梵文mahatithi一字。据威廉斯氏《梵英字典》796页谓系阴历初六日。

注二:这一节的意义不甚明了。据我看,若将这一节的第1、2两行和第42节的第1、2两行交换位置,这两节的意思,好像都要依为通顺一点。据一位西藏友人说这一切中的明月是比为政的君子,兔儿是比君子所嬖幸的小人。

40

这月去了,

下月来了。

等到吉祥白月的月初*,

我们即可会面。*

40

This month passes away,

And the nest month comes.

(I) will come to visit you at the beginning,

Of that auspicious “light half of the month”.

注一:印度历法自月盈至满月谓之(白月)。见丁氏《佛学大辞典》904页下。

注二:这一节据说是男女相约之词。

41

中间的弥卢山王*,

请牢稳地站着不动。

日月旋转的方向,

并没有想要走错。

41

Meru the king of mountains in the middle,

Please firmly stands there without swerve.